that stupid feeling

You make me crazy
Sending me on this up
And down travel
You don't even realize
I talk to you
And my heart's coming up
And into my mouth
I can't focus
You respond
And my breathing is coming out
Labored as I try to control
That panic that you make me feel
And I'm giggling
And stressed
Covering my eyes
And trying to hide
While trying to figure out
What the hell is wrong with me
And how I could feel this way again
You'll never return the feelings
Never think of me
In the many ways I think of you
And dream of you
But at least I have that
The dream-you
Who comforts me in the night
And makes me feel whole
If only until I wake up